Bittersweet

A few thoughts rolling around in this head of mine this evening:

It's hard to believe that this will be one of my last few weekends at home. I'm not quite sure I'm ready for this year to begin, now that I feel like it's all coming up so soon. Loneliness at first seems inevitable, despite being surrounded by so many people. New faces, new classes, new circle of friends. It's almost here. I'm excited, yes, but I can't help tofeel a little down. I'm going to miss the comfort and familiarity of what I have here. Dinners with beloved friends, watching cheesy chick flicks and reality shows with mom, waking up in the morning with coffee already brewed. It's those little things. But then I got to thinking, all those bits and pieces of what I cherish here will only make the memories that much sweeter. I know God has a bigger plan for me out there, high school was a mere stepping stone. My struggle has just been allowing him to give me a peace of mind when I feel alone and a little afraid of what is ahead of me. I've been a little uneasy about what the future will look like for me; I feel my interests are a bit scattered in terms of what I want to study, and I hate not knowing what's next. And it frustrates me that I always seem to reach out to God last after analyzing and analyzing every single anxious thought. But Lord, I'm ready to lay down this worry at Your feet, You can handle much more than I give You credit for.

That was refreshing to get off my chest :)

Alright updates, updates. So I caved.

And ordered a Longchamp bag with my hard-earned paycheck. Bad Julie.

And bought Something Blue to complete my Emily Griffin book set. I'm already on Chapter Eight, and I've only been reading it during the 27 Dresses commercial breaks.

And got addicted to Izzi drinks, thanks to the lovely ANH. Oh my goodness the sparkling blackberry was so good!

And saw Charlie St. Cloud with my dear CNN, even though it got a horrid review. (However, I really thought it was enjoyable!)

And got excited once I saw National Dance Day was written on my calendar for tomorrow. EEK that's awesome! Okay, I'll be the first to admit I'm a complete dork.